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Sayonara

Would like to keep it short and sweet. Last Goodbye. Take care guys. See you guys again. Check my blog as and when if you want to know how am i doing. Ciao.

Just another dot in my life.

So I’ve decided to pen down my this 1 and a quarter year of unemployed experience. That’s it. No big deal. Just my personal story. Before I started, I have to borrowed a quote from Steve Jobs which says “you can’t connect the dots looking forward at the present; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

So that’s pretty much explaining my perspective on this unemployed period. I need to believe in something and so I have to believe this experience which I’m currently going through is just another dot in my life. I do not know why I have to gone through this kind of situation but I believe when I’m looking back, everything will make sense to me. During this period, I must say there are a few changes for myself to adapt to the situation. One of the few is turning myself into a optimist. Being positive in life make you live happier and it also make life easier. By knowing how to appreciate everything little things in your life you actually gain strength from it, and you realise you become stronger in emotionally and mentally. Being positive teach me how to looks at things from different angle, how to find courage when there is failure/unfortunate/mistake in life, and how not to be a judgemental person, always humble and keep learning from one another.

On the other note, I also rediscovering my friendship with people around me along the way. I get to know my friends better at the same time I made new friends outside my usual circle of  friends. Especially the rediscovering of brotherhood of 5sc2. It was totally unexpected. maybe its because of the period of me staying in Malacca is much longer this time ever since i left to study in Singapore. It’s partly due to I’m always available and people know that I’m always around/free, therefore the rate of hanging out together increased. Then, while hanging out more often with friends you actually slowly become part of their life, we actually get to talk a lot more, conversation we shared getting deeper progressively, going through stuff together, good and bad, only then we found out we actually leaving marks in each other life, and the friendship rediscovered. Therefore i would love to thanks people like Gent Chin, Amo, Siao Bear, Eugene, Kian Tiong, Kok Wei, John Micheal De Silva. Thanks for being through this together with me.

I’ve always consider Singapore as my 2nd home.  The only things that always bring me back to Singapore is friends. I would like to thanks Kenneth,Vince,Char/Schizo,Mel/Robin,Sha for housing me whenever i needed. Your assistance to me during that period of time meant a lot to me even though you might not know it. But now you know. Someone used to told me that as you grow up, your priority in life change. As for me, i will go with the order of family,career,friends,dance.  for those who know me well, dance come first before friends, but that was past. During this period i have to reshuffle to the current order, redefine the meaning of friendship, how human relationship can sustain through different kind of method and friendship existed in different kind of form, and how friends is being there for me silently and got my back without asking any return.  Lastly it was during this period i get to know these people well enough to make me not to forget them..Von,Augustine,Louis,Teck. take good care guys!

If it wasn’t for Kenneth, i don’t think i will ever dance again in SDZ. Therefore i really need to thank him for pulling me back, if not for you, i won’t even have the gut to choreo for waves, and to work with 9 wonderful girls. It was really a great experience and gotta be one of the highlight during this period. Of all the SDZ dancers i know, i really have to mention this three person which are Ben Chia, Lum, Jasmine Ang. Maybe they always find me for advice, and in a way knowing what kind of situation the are experienced and seeing how they managed to pull it through tough time really inspired me. I’m really happy for what they had achieved now, even though not something in big scale to be proud of, but still if you guys keep this altitude going, you all surely will be up there.

You know, Bruce Lee once said that “if you love life, don’t waste time, for time is what life is made up of.” Life goes on. My experience told me not to bothered about the cruel fact of reality no more. Instead we should accept and find the courage to change the things we can. I’ve been wasting too much time and i shall not repeat my mistake again.The two most important things to me right now is to achieve my goal in the shortest time possible and to dance no matter where i go. As for the rest, it doesn’t  really matter to me anymore for i will not waste time dwelling on things i can never change.

Live. Love. Laugh.

You will know when is the right time.

Sometimes what you think might not be how you really feel. Get me? sometimes what you see and listen might not be the truth because somehow your brain told you how you are suppose to feel and act/to trust that person or to judge a person without a deep understanding.  stop thinking how you should really feel and how things are suppose to go your way. just go with the flow and make things happen.

I am not a love doctor or or a relationship expert perhaps i barely have any experience to share. I am not someone who’s good at stuff like that, but i do know instead of finding a perfect one, why not embrace his/her imperfection and live a happy life? Because sometimes what we know about this person doesn’t mean he/she will always remain what they are now, people do change from time to time, what if you found out he/she is no longer the person you like, will you still be able to love him/her the way you used to be? will you be there for him/her when he/she going through tough time, or when you guys are both at the lowest state of your life,will you be there for each other?

Giving love to someone you really care is so much meaningful compare to how you expect people to love you the way you want. stop wasting time dealing with your unnecessary feeling/thinking. instead do what you are suppose to do, feel it,experience it, and make your judgement base on the things you’ve done, you will surely know when is the right time and who is the right one.

Dedicated to two strongest and powerful women in my life.

I’m so gonna miss my Mum and Aunt. Even though my action doesn’t really show it out, but you know i always do love the both of you. A tear drop uncontrollably from my eye when i saw both of your reaction when i told your i’m gonna leaving soon. Felt as if there are millions of things you all wanted to say to me but just couldn’t say it out, and behind the emotionless face i saw two women who really care for and love me. Life is fragile and unpredictable, just want to let you all know that I love you guys. Hopefully this two months of quality time spent with you all can make it up to my following absence for a period of time. Till then…..  A hug simply mean everything. Take care.